"I go to the east, but he is not there. I go to the west, but I cannot find him. I do not see him in the north, for he is hidden. I turn to the south, but I cannot find him. But He knows where I am going. And when he has tested me like gold in a fire, he will pronounce me innocent."
- Job 23:8-10
I really feel that today although I know God is here with me throughout each day, my faith is constantly being tested. Not in a sense where God wants to see how far I can go before failing, but rather how far he can take me with succeeding in life, gaining an abundance of hope, inspiration, faith, and all in all a better understanding of why I am doing, what I am doing in life. Although I may not know why I am doing half the stuff I am, God does. Really that's all I need in life, because He has the perfect plan for me whether I see it now or not. That's the hardest part for me because I don't understand why I have to go through the stuff I have. Although I have it better then a lot, life does get hard .. for everyone. Recently it just seems like event after event, word after word, and negativity are piling down on me. It's never easy to try and always see the light in things especially when it seems like you've done everything possible. But yet there's always one more thing that you have to deal with.
"We are human, but we don't wage war with human plans and methods. We use God's mighty weapons, not mere worldly holds. -- The trouble with you is that you make your decisions on the basis of appearance. You must recognize that we belong to Christ just as much as those who proudly declare that they belong to Christ."
- 2 Corinthians 10:3-4;7
I am really blessed to know the people I know and be involved in the church I am involved with. There is no other place that is overwhelmingly opened armed, and caring about your problems like Desert Stream. The church is just exploding with people who have a desire to explode with God's love, joy and mercy.
On Sunday I was given the verse above, 2 Cor 10: 3-4;7 , and it really touched my heart. It's one of those things you become so use to hearing it, that when it's time to put it to the test it completely slips your mind. You sit there and it takes that bonk of the head for you to realize 'oh yeah, I'm a child of God .. I don't need to suffer, or live in complacency anymore .. my indecision isn't a problem and my fears have already been resolved.' It's good to know that there are people out there who are willing to step up and out in God's name and word willing to share, the word of God with complete faith. I hope to be able to pick up these attributes from the leaders in my church, and to be bold enough to begin today a path of God's love, passion and desire to be one with each and every person living, young and old. To me there's no better feeling then the feeling of love, trust, companionship, to be true in a world full of lies and deceit, and a desire to be someone for God, and when people see me they don't see the world, they see a light. Something that you can only find in the heart of someone who obviously loves God more then their own breath.
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On Sunday I was given the verse above, 2 Cor 10: 3-4;7 , and it really touched my heart. It's one of those things you become so use to hearing it, that when it's time to put it to the test it completely slips your mind. You sit there and it takes that bonk of the head for you to realize 'oh yeah, I'm a child of God .. I don't need to suffer, or live in complacency anymore .. my indecision isn't a problem and my fears have already been resolved.' It's good to know that there are people out there who are willing to step up and out in God's name and word willing to share, the word of God with complete faith. I hope to be able to pick up these attributes from the leaders in my church, and to be bold enough to begin today a path of God's love, passion and desire to be one with each and every person living, young and old. To me there's no better feeling then the feeling of love, trust, companionship, to be true in a world full of lies and deceit, and a desire to be someone for God, and when people see me they don't see the world, they see a light. Something that you can only find in the heart of someone who obviously loves God more then their own breath.
xo
ox
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