the begining

So this is my very first blog. I'm not totally sure how this goes .. yet. So I'm just going to use this as kind of a introduction to me, and kind of what I'm about and stuff. So here we go ..

So I just turned 18, June 20th, and graduated high school this year. So it's easy to see the complications arising even now. This has meant making decisions that could potentially effect my whole life. I never really realized what next in my life until last night lying in bed, where I do my best thinking, I was like of like, 'okay this is it ... '

My goal in life is to be a social service worker and eventually open my own Christian Girls Group Home in the area, and become a youth pastor as well. I look at these dreams, goals, ambitions, aspirations .. whatever you label them as and they seem so far, but so close at the same time. Although I have yrs of schooling .. they're right there. These next steps in my life I have been contemplating for a while now.

I had to make decisions that involved either me staying here, or moving away for a year. Not an easy decision to make especially when they move could change you so much. My problem with my decision was, 'I don't want to lose myself the in midst of finding myself ..' Which I thought was pretty reasonable, but I found I couldn't live constantly fearing what's next. So come Oct I'll be moving to Renfrew to live with extended family for a yr (August 2010) working full-time, gaining independence, and I guess just growing up & finally becoming the person I always wanted to be. It's scary, but after much indecision, a girl's gotta go what a girl's gotta do. Aside from all of that I found out I'll probably have a car all to myself for a year, which is really cool. I'll be able to come home whenever I feel the need to. It's all going to work out, and aside from being petrified out of my mind, I am anxious to start life.

Aside from that part of my life the rest is just hectic as of now, a definite 'caution: danger zone.' But one day I'll be able to write about it with defeat .. so anyways for now .. this is Candace's blog.

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